harden my heart

i've been looking at lots of magazines lately.
sudden magazine fetish.
i especially enjoy the 'decor' mags.
they inspire me.
if you don't look at them, maybe you ought.


that was a really good lunch, btw.



i should go home and paint. i only have, like, two hours of free/alone time. then i have an event to go to, which i am kindof ambivalent about, but i am still going.
sociality is so hard for me to deal with. i hate it but i feel that i have to force myself to do it.