see-thru faded

yes, i am going to start branching out and feel around for a new job.

it's been a struggle because there are definitely aspects of my job which i like, but there are other aspects which are ruining it for me.

part of my reluctance to stop working there is that i don't like the idea of 'giving up' or the idea that there are people who have been doing that job for years, like 7-10 years and i look at them and think, "if they can do it; i can do it"

i wish. but there's just something about it all that bothers me.
i'd really like to write a book about it, or something extensive.