Tyra's Main Message?

hi. if i happen to start watching ANTM, i get hooked and can't stop. since it seems to be on 24/7, it can become a problem. anyway, the past couple of weeks, i watched it quite a bit and came to these AMAZINGLY PROFOUND conclusions:

modeling isn't just about 'being pretty'
really only certain people can be 'cut out for it' but i think it must be a big myth for the general public to think that it is something that just 'comes naturally'...
that whole 'you could be a model' cliche is just frivolous. right?
or usually, just off-base from an insider P.O.V.

i watched an episode of "MADE" where this 'goth girl' wanted to be Miss Arizona. that episode made me cry!

everyone is in some sort of pain

do people have a high level of interpersonal conflict on a global scale or just national or what? it's everywhere, isn't it?
ubiquitous is the word that comes to mind. i guess i over-use that word.



i have often thought that i misuse my voice when i use it to hurt or cause pain... but i chose at a crucial time to try singing instead of yelling. i think it worked. i will try to do it again in the future. just BURST into SONG when i want to be mad at someone.

on The Hills, they twirl and flip and touch their hair a lot. are they self-conscious or is it just habitual/learned behavior? are there different meanings to different strokes of the hair?

deep stuff, i know.



i like Glade Suddenly Spring room refresher spray.

okay, actually, i do have a job. i'm working at a community service place sorting thru donated items, hanging up the clothes, throwing away unwanted junk, feeding homeless people, etc. also i have moved into a new home with three other women, Real World Stylez. it's cool. i am going to church and recovery meetings and all that good shtuff. so be happy for me, meanie-heads. and NOW i get to have visitation with my daughter again! YAY! i am happy.

i had the honor of being kicked out

people should really be thankful for electricity while they have it, but maybe even also thankful for when they don't (at least for brief periods short enough hopefully to prevent complete insanity from wreaking its havoc on our feeble little technology addicted blinks on the matrix). Modern day humans require the endless distraction of ubiquitous mind-enhancing technological gadgets. our power was out tonight for only a couple of hours and mutual mental/emotional irritation began to quickly ensue as a psychological undercurrent inducive of mental game-playing purely for lack of external stimulus and/or mental discipline. (training daily in meditative pursuits isn't a frivolous activity, afterall.)

more of me to love?

those chips are good, but i only ate a couple.
this stuff is nasty. i only drank it because i needed to eat something in a hurry and i didn't feel like eating at the time.
whatever, these are just a bunch of old pics, since i haven't been able to post due to lack of computer, extreme stress in my life and lots of yukky snow snowing everywhere trying to prevent me from going anywhere outside.
i do not like the following dress. i was just trying it ON for KICKS.


anyway, thanks for ALL YOUR ENCOURAGEMENT and support during this difficult time of my life.
i really really do not like the smell of woodsmoke in my clothes and hair. it is so gross. i am so tired right now. i'm at the library. today, i took a big step in what will hopefully be the right direction. i am trying to make more positive, proactive choices in my life.

i'm busy

sorry

why don't YOU tell ME?

i saw sweeney todd yesterday.
that is all i have to say to you at the moment.

kick me when i'm down

i sketched that top pic of my son a couple of days ago.
someone said it looks like me.
i think it looks like him.